I tried to forget what happened. So I just went back to my usual writing job. Then another contest for game characters opened again this year. I actually thought twice of joining because of fear that I may not be allowed join because that same artist might be handling it again. I joined anyway. It didn't matter to me who was handling the contest. I was really stoked on doing a piece for that. Sort of like redemption for me because I have a lot to prove to that artist. This time it was not about possibly getting a job there and certainly not about getting my piece published. It was simply showing about what I can really do as an artist. Nevermind if I get rejected just as long they got to see what I've done that's all.
As the deadline loomed closer, something hit me. I remembered what that artist told me before -- and he's right. He's right that my artworks aren't up to professional level. He's right that the attitude I showed him at the time would haunt me. He's right that I haven't drawn for a very long time. He's right that I deserve to join their contest. He's right that I can never take my drawing skills to the next level. HE WAS RIGHT ALL ALONG.
So I didn't bother finishing up what I've started. I realized I wasn't ready for this -- to come back and draw again. I know I've had such bad luck in joining Art Contests but again, my main goal wasn't about winning or getting published -- it was about showing that artist that I've changed. I was ready to show him the change but my art isn't.
For now, I'ma pass on the contest. Instead of feeling bitter because I wasn't able to make the deadline, I'm actually glad I passed on it. And that felt good, honestly.
I'll just wait for the next opportunity to show what I can do. And when that day comes, I'ma be ready that's for sure. I look forward to seeing the tribute book when comes out in a few months and I congratulate those who have put their hard work in that contest and wish them the best.
If that artist ever reads this journal of mine, I would like to thank him for making me realize a lot of things. For changing my views in life and having a better understanding of it. Again, thanks.
On that note, I can now go back to my day job.
-Roy











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"Handsome fighters never lose battles."
- Vega
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Cadrigo cares for Bvlgari, not Polo.
Many thanks for watching me, mate
Btw i really like what are you doing here, you have good stuff..looking forward to see more
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What song the sirens sang, or what name Aquilles assumed when he did himself among women, although puzzling questions, are not beyond all conjecture.
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♏ // Soul of Light
=xximaginarysky is my Aibo!
✔ Akatsukisexual
I dream about Itachi tying me up and fucking me until I can't walk.
Then he leaves me like that for the rest of the Akatsuki to have their way with me. <3